I have a thing about hard limits.
They turn me on.
Let me explain.
I think I've mentioned before that my absolute biggest hard limit is needles. I have a phobia of hypodermic needles and syringes, especially ones designed for blood tests. My phobia does not spill over into all sharp things; in fact, I have something of a fascination with knives. But how I react to sharp, pointy things really depends on what it is and what it's used for.
I also have limits with my nipples. They are acutely sensitive, and can't take a lot of abuse. Threaten me with nipple torture, and I will cry.
Here's where things get funny: my most exciting fantasies, the ones that shoot me into instant arousal and have me itching to come, are ones that involve getting pins stuck through my nipples. Obviously, I would NEVER want this done to me; this is fantasy alone, visions in my head that will never come to fruition. But the idea of it thrills me nonetheless.
The ultimate turn on: someone breaking my hardest limits.
Are other people like this? Do your deepest, hardest limits become your ultimate fantasies? Or is this just a sub/surrender thing?
I also have a phobia of needles. I've never had a blood test, and will avoid it as long as possible.
ReplyDeleteI don't have needle fantasies, but I definitely have fantasies that I will never live out in reality, because unlike fantasy, reality has consequences, physical and otherwise.
Even before I knew enough to identify as submissive, I had those fantasies - you know, the tied-up-beaten-used-name-calling ones. The ones "I'd never want done to me, of course."
ReplyDeleteBut eventually the pull was too great and I brought it into my life....
With lovely consequences.
Oh, yes, i can completely relate to this post. I love that my Sir pushes me. I love that he explores the edge of what I find reasonable...then, sometimes,
ReplyDeletesteps over.
Now, not all of my limits are ones I want to physically explore - but sometimes we explore them psychologically and WOW!